I’m having one of those days. You know, the kind of day when every person on earth is there to irritate the crud outta you, everyone else on the road is a terrible driver, your baby has a blow-out and gets poop all over the place and your children are acting helpless and irritating you. Oh wait, we already talked about people irritating me…
*sigh* Days like these I feel like a terrible mom. I know I’m not a terrible mom, but I’m sure acting like one today (and yesterday too). Lately, I seem to wake up with my patience needle on “empty” and that’s not a good thing. The chaos that then greets me is just more than my tired brain can take and by 9am I’m snapping and muttering and just not a happy person.
You all have days like these too, right? I hear the “Super Mom” comments all the time, and I’m here to say I am not super mom. Right now I’m cranky-impatient-snappy mom. I don’t think my kids are fans of this kind of mom, and frankly I’m beginning to irritate myself with my attitude.
The frustration of a sick kid (Lily is now on antibiotics for her terrible chest congestion), a bunch of 4 year olds who are still acting like 3 year olds much of the time, and a husband who is working way too much is just becoming one big frustrating experiece.
I need a vacation. A long one. With a beach. And a Starbucks that gives me all of the Salted Caramel Mochas that I can handle, but for free because $5 a pop is too much and I’m on vacation, darn it!
It’s nice to dream, isn’t it? I feel better having gotten this off my chest, and I almost feel like I’ve been conversing with you. I feel like a few (at least) of you have been nodding along and thinking “yep, I’ve felt that way too”, and it makes me feel better to know that other moms sometimes feel like miserable failures at this parenting thing too.
Know what I’m going to try to do? Embrace my life. My life is crazy and it will be for at least 15 or 16 more years. My house is filled with preschoolers – I’m going to get attitude, drama and meltdowns. My days are long, but bed time always comes. Starbucks is expensive, but it’s ok on those days that bed time seems too far away.
If I focus on embracing the craziness of my life, and the fact that all of these little moments, though they seem to drag on for eternity, will pass and pass quickly, I think the days will seem better. I’ll try to embrace the hilarious things that pop out of the boys’ mouths, and savor watching them talk together at the dinner table. And when the stress really gets me, I’ll scoop up Lily and make her giggle – she’s a great stress reliever when she’s not too busy having a blow out!
“Embrace this life. Really embrace it, and nothing will be too much for you.” Mark 11:22 The Message